current feeling: miss that boy, duhh?



its obviously that my blog is rotting, duhh?
ohwell, i'm having prelim exams mind you. therefore i've made myself busy studying at the regional library with my dear Umairah and Noriyah. besides studying, we're more to gossips and phototaking. hah (:

anyway, i've spent my saturday with danny. after soooo many days not meeting him. in fact few weeks tho'. well, asked him out to take my class tee shirts at jurong point. supposedly, iman should follow but in the end, he just wasting my time. @#$%! whatever man. ohwell, had late lunch at banquet and catch up with new gossips and stories. heh as always. there's alot of banglas outside jurong point, i tell you. i mean after sunset, they'll have these gathering near the bus interchange. wtf man i felt so insecure. see see what. so girls, better be safe than sorry. atleast have a guy beside you or don't walk there at all. & i'm home early okay! good girl, am i? haha. so danny sent myself home because the two plastic of class tee shirts were ubberly heavy man. i didn't know at first until i've reached my block. ohmygah, i felt guilty tho'. but never mind, he's the man. HAHA :D
now, let pictures do the blabbering yaw.

study session with girlfriends. ^^




'seoul garden' session with my babygirls last weekend yaw. ^^
NATASHA




NADIAH QYSARA




&btw, i'll link/relink later alright people.
keep leaving those tags okay (:

mood: HAPPY!

50 bucks and two dresses
pizza hut and more fooooood
&& prepaid top up alrdy
awesomest!
thanks daddy! :D

actually, thanks to the Government for the bonus man!
i got to shop shop shop yaw. superduper happy. hahahahahaha.

now that i've got money..
who wants to have a lunch date with me?!
there's pasar malam at causeway point tho'

later on: aunties and adorable babyniece[s] will come to my crib for 'seoul garden' session. yeaa steamboat and grilling in my crib yaw. siapa mau join? :D

ps im ubberly happy when my long lost primary school friend text me yaw. like all of the sudden. excited, duhh? hahahahaha
& i saw IMAN! he's fucking hot yaw. 'cause he wore white! ^^

yawnyawnyawn. goodnight earthlings.

was asked by atykah and dummyra to do this fucking survey man. :D first time y'know. okay here it goes.


(01) What is my full name?
* Haniz Bte Abdul Halim

(02) Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
* PARAMORE's concert :D

(03) What's your favourite thing(s) to do?
* spend time with my bestfriends, and stay out late

(04) Do you think money can buy happiness?
* yes, it makes people happy in one way tho'

(05) If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
* to be a diva duhh? ladidadida

(06) Do you believe you can survive without money?
* yes, i always have no money man. hahahahaha :D

(07) Do you think there is such a thing called 'LOVE'? Reason?
* duhh? then how are you gonna live with your life partner man.

(08) What's love?
* senses of affection and sexual attraction, ineffable feeling towards another person

(09) What do you dream of doing in the future?
* travel around the world and embracing the puffy clouds, sunset and stargazing

(10)List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you.
* Dhaimirah: funny brat, adorable, never-a-waste-of-time to hang out with. Atyk: prettygirl, funny brat, fun to bully her actually.

(11) What makes you happy?
* when my friends happy (: , & when people give me stuff duhh

(12) What type of person do you hate the most?
* Liars

(13) Where do you see yourself 1o years down the road?
* paparazzi all around me yaw ! :D

(14) When someone says "Can i have your number?" , what do you do?
* awhh! i'll kick their ass man. yakkidiyakyak.

(15) Who is the most important person in your life?
* everyone

(16) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
* memories

(17) If you had a chance to change your life, what would you want to change?
* turn back the time, & erase all my mistakes towards my friends especially isk.

(18) The love of your life now?
* eventhough there's new one, my heart still goes to that boy [to you: i'm sorry]

(19) Are you courageous enough to tell a person that you hate him/her?
* my body language tells more :D

(20) Would you rather follow your heart or mind when deciding for the right one?
* heart

Instruction: Remove 1 question from above & add in your personal question. Make it a total of 2o questions. Then tag 1o people in your list & list them out at the end of this post.
Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1) Umairah
2) Ana Girlf
3) Azruhil
4) Atyk
5) Lyana Bby
6) Mille
7) Zhee Wei
8) Hyrude
9) Nizam
10) and whoever wants to do it okay.

anymore links/relinks, people?
leave me a tag for that ok?
i've just made a livejournal. hah. whatever for? for fun!
but its still under construction.
& i own a deviantart now! teehee ^.^
go now; ohdatin.deviantart.com

sesungguhnya blog aku suci sekali. heh! (:

Come up to you.
Telling you that I'm sorry.

I was too harsh on my words. Maybe because I was expecting too much that, in the end, I hurt myself. I'm sorry. Really I am.
I have never hated you, my dear. Why should I?
Don't say you're not a good friend. It hurts man.
I have never think that way.
You used to say these; 'Soulmates go through ups and downs together, right?'
D'you still remember that?
Yes, I have stated clearly that I contented with my friends around.
But that doesn't mean you have to think that you stooped low among them.
I treat everyone the same. I love my friends!
& I love you, my dear soulmate! Really I am.
You're just irreplaceable.
I don't bother about that boy.
Like you've said; 'If one door closes, another one opens' Right?
I've someone new. Yey? Will you be happy for me?
Maybe I should label myself a bad friend afterall.
Because I've made you cry.
& I'm sorry to make you cry over this.
I've shouldn't make a big fuck about it.
I've forgave you, like long time already.
Forgive me pleaseeeee, my dear
-_______________-'

I want to dedicate this song to my dear Soulmate,
Umairah Bte Mohd. Jafree
Okay here it goes.

weak

a week since my operation. i am back home and doing fine so far. thanks for those who showed concern. was kinda disappointed with some of my close friends whom i thought they would care and be there for me. ohwell, i felt pretty much contented with those who came and gave well wishes. loves.

dreadful night in the hospital. i couldn't talk much despite the atmosphere was full of joy with my lovely people by my side. of course, even before my operation, Azruhil, Amma and Sudiana was the first 'customer' came. i was really bored to the max as the waiting hours was very long, i tell you. my dad was psp-ing while my mother just couldn't stop being an irritating person. HAHA. plus i was fasting ok! since the night before until late afternoon. like what the fuck. but i was really ecstatic after seeing Sudiana pop out from the door with her wide smile. followed by Azruhil and Amma. i couldnt react much but to give them a smile and a hug. ohwell, my parents leave me with them. so we did what girl always did; GOSSIPS! hah. & hell yeah they had fun sitting on my bed yaw. right Sudiana? :D of course we catch up what we've missed after so long didn't met. she's getting fatter! HAHA oops! i guess Suds is happier now with her boyf kannn. happy for her.
when the nurse came and inform me to get change into operation 'costume', Azruhil helped me out. & dear you didn't suck at it okay. atleast you tried what right ^.^ so i was put on the bed and the three lovely ladies accompanied me all the way to the OT. kept saying goodbye but HAHA their goodbye was a never goodbye. i was awed! really.
in the OT, the doctors were almost male! HAHA. & they're not just cute but they're sweet enough to make me feel relax. blahblahblah the next thing i knew i was 'dead'.

then i was woke up by this nurse who kept saying 'haniz?haniz?are you okay?you're in the recovering room okay?' all i could do was playing around with my eyes. as i felt fucking dizzy. the oxygen muask still on my face and i could hear patients moaning for their unbearable pain. like what the fuck. i was relieved! 'cause three hours wasnt that long after all i played 'dead'. hah. at that point of time, i wanted so much to get bck to my ward. i felt like jumping up and down, shout hooorayyy its over. hah. stupid haniz. :D

as i was brought bck to my ward, the first face i saw was Danny. he was stand right beside the door. i didnt have clear eyesight. but i could see that he waved happily. then the nurses helped me to change. she asked me not to talk much as i just got stitched. -.- that really freaks me out.
i couldn't hold my feelings but to atleast smile to my dear seniors who came all the way from their respective school. and waited from 5pm until 7pm plus. walau i felt bad. & i didnt expect they would came to visit me. at that point of time, i couldn't tahan but to let out abit of my laughter. they wre superduper funnnnnneh! really.
thanks Helina, Dhaifina, Li Shan, Joreen, Shafiq! and my dear Danny, i was super awed!

Azruhil, Amma, Suds and of course, Danny, stayed 'till late. they entertained me duhhh? Danny couldn't stop being sucha irritating brat. played self-timer camwhoring. they're sucha adorable kids y'know. being there for a friend when in need. they accompanied me for my dinner. & of course Suds fed me, followed by Danny. hah. awwhh sweets! :D HAHA

i was really weak at that point of time. where i just need that certain people to be there for me, to give me words of strength and stay by my side. but somehow the people i need weren't there. 'till now. i didn't get to see their face since.
disappointment. -___- ohwell, some says you cannot expect anything right. yea i shouldn't. mayb because they're just busy with their fucking life or even lazy to atleast drop by my house. ohwell nevermind. i forgave them actually. because they are my love ones still. (:

& yeah. my dear Lyana baby and Ana girlf came by my crib that random afternoon. i was discharged by then. fast? yea pathetic doctor. -.- btw, THANKS FOR THE WAFFLE CRISPS LYANA! ily darling. i was starting to wonder how she knows my favourite food. hah. thanks to danny yaw!

&& my dear girlf Syazana, Fathimah, Doris and Ili drop by my house after their chemistry lesson. it was bad weather and they came by cab sia. aiyo -.- we catch up with school stuff. & yeah Nurul Huda and Syakirah drop by for moment as they need to be back home early 'tho. thanks girlfs! ilylots yaw.

as for now, i've been having hurts around my neck as i tilted my head to the left eversince my operation. my mother kept nagging to exercise my head or else i have blood clotting. eeeeee i got frightened.

okay im done for now. (:
thanks to my family and my aunt yati and my grandmother who came eventhough she weren't that well. thanks to all my lovely homos for the visit. & also to those who gave sweet well wishes. i have personally stated your name there in my post. because thats all i could repay you guys. or mayb lunch sometime? (: thanks alot yaw. ♥

fucking pissed off!
cbkia sia. -________-

all my picture albums all gone. like what the fuck okay!
sucha asshole you deleted EVERYTHING inside this all-time favourite computer of mine.
uugghh! my albums all gone now!! & my msn live also gone gone gone! even this fucking format of bloody computer has changed. like what the fuck! -_______-
for once, i can't breath for a moment after seeing all these.

to my parents: ugghh! i can't believe that you did these. i know the computer is quite old and running slow. but even if you need to reformat the computer, plssssssssss put back whats there. i mean even if the pictures gone, there must be atleast my msn live back. or even the plugins for imeem. ohmygawddddd! yes, i can't even listen to songs anymore people! all different okay! ohmyyyy. -____- i'm not good at installing anything. neither i want to touch this computer again man. uggggghhhh!

if you're reading this, then goooood. hear my thoughts now. 'cause everytime you both always say out whats on your mind and put the blame on me most. wtf okay! i don't like but i kept quiet. -_______-

i have no mood already. i declare that this computer ain't the same like used to be. like what the fuck! even i have two laptops at home, thats not mine. and mother always nag about me using long hours on her fucking laptop. uuuugggggggh! -.-"

okay bye assholes!

Operation in two days time.
frankly speaking, i'm excited rather than scared now. idk why. maybe because, my life won't be the same again after operation i guess.
oh well, i will admit on Monday morning at 7am yaw. -.- sucha pathetic time. plus i need to do fasting. imagine, no food and drink after 12 midnight. dotss

Anyway, my apology for late entries. like almost a month now. should i say busy? not really though, as i do blog hopping and read people's daily rant. (:

Friendships do occur misconception, misunderstanding or whatever words that define that. right people? wonder why i popped this sentence.
because i felt that i am trying my very best to sustain my friendships with people. & i felt like i'm carrying burden to every sorrows that occur in my friendships. && i felt that people don't regard me the same as how i regard them. bestfriends? bestmates? girlfriends? soulmates? yea to some is just a word. but to me, it means everything yaw. yes, everything. because i love every single one of my friends.
and trust me this; i love my friends more than i love myself.
& sacrifice alot for the sake of our friendships.

there's no need for me to say names. 'cause whoever you are, should know me better than strangers. i am not expecting anything. but this is how i felt recently.
& im sorry

alright people, do pray for me. (:
there's still lil' fear deep deep inside my nerves actually.
wish me luck people. ♥