Note to Umairah and Suhanah: I've uploaded pictures of yours and ours at my Multiply. Like finally. So, you can check it out and do your thangg. Lol. Sorry for the delay.
Note to my babies: I'll update real soon about our East Coast Outing aight. Mwahss.
& to everyone: I want peace. I don't want end up getting irritated with irritating fools. Geddit? Thanks, appreciate it loads.
Actually, I've got alot to update, pictures of East Coast Outing with my babies. I'm deadbeat and obviously not in the mood after reading something that totally put myself speechless. I don't know how should I feel. Its going in the circle, again. I can say that I can't be bothered, but the feelings just can't escape. What a day to start on Christmas. Anyway, Merry Christmas to all. *singing mariah carey's christmas song*
'I am thinking of you.In my sleepless solitude tonight.If it's wrong to love you.Then my heart just won't let me be right.'Cause I've drowned in you.And I won't pull through.Without you by my side.I'd give my all.To have just one more night with you.I'd risk my life.To feel your body next to mine.'Cause I can't go on.Living in the memory of our song.I'd give my all.For your love tonight.Baby, can you feel me.Imagining I'm looking in your eyes.I can see you clearly.Vividly emblazoned in my mind.And yet you're so far.Like a distant star.I'm wishing on tonight.' boy, i love you, and you knew it.
My stomach is really testing my patience. God knows how hurt, really hurt it is. Tomorrow I'm working, and I don't know if I'm able to pull through. Earlier on, I've managed to, because I was controlling/tahan-ing the pain as not to make other people's life difficult you see. So yaa thats it. Dear God, plssssssss.
I'm exhausted. I didn't had any proper meals. I always skipped dinner, and rarely ate lunch. Yet I have weight problem. Laptop is my food now. I am packed with too many schedules, that I don't have much time for myself. I'm fcuking stressed. I didn't had proper sleep too, 'cause I simply can't sleep. Migraine come and go, and eyebags sure making my face like a puffer fish. I get agitated with surroundings. I missed my period, again. I'll tend to talk to myself 'cause nobody is really here hear me out. I wanna cry. It makes me feel better. That's all I could do. I feel that people around me is changing. Or is it me? Idk. I felt I've becoming more sensitive. Damn. I've been living independently now. Maybe I should. I'm really exhausted. I really really am. My body's aching. My heart beats not constant, and it really hurts. My mind is jumble up. I have so many things to pen down, or even to let it out loud. P.O.P's drawing near, and I could feel the chills. I knew He will be there for me, whenever I'm down with shitxzx, and I'll think of Him and pray everything will be fine. & I'm sure I could make it through all this shitzx, 'cause for now I could still stand strong, waiting to breakdown. Thats it.
I miss that boy. I'm happy for his N level results. He's near me, but somehow I felt that we're so much distant apart. By listening to Mariah Carey's, I'm tearing. Bye.
Tmr is Saturday, and I'm working. Damnit. Anyway I'm new, and got many things to learn and remember. Afterwhich, section outing! I'm sooooo looking forward mannnnn. Happy sekali! Whats more, my babies gonna pick me up at my workplace. Woohoo. *dancing dangdut*
Earlier in the evening, I met Amalina and Nabilah near my neighbourhood, plus mumsy wants bubble tea and food for tmr's breakfast. I'm sooo ecstatic to meet to them y'know! It was a short meet up, yet I still miss them truckloads. Ibuku & Nenekku, tell me in advance for any meet ups k. don't lupa me, like that bitch who ditched me whenever she meets you all. wth! sakit hati the max laaa. but i know you both won't do that to me right. lol! thanks for calling me up to meet. you know i am so happy you called. *big grin* love you bbygirls! mwahssss! Right now, I'm enduring mumsy, who said wanna sleep but wondering around the house disturbing people with her loud boombox. Lol, funny yet irrtitaing to the max. & I'm chatting with Azmi bestie! and with Stephy bby too! *kening naik naik* Idk why I wrote these, but I'm so bored. Imeem sucha whore.
My mind was everywhere, that I can't focus on work. Its like most of the things I did, went wrong. Wth. I bet my colleagues today got irritated with me. Idk, I'm sorry.
I rushed to school, after work, for band practice. Supposedly, I was alrd yawning and half sleep throughout the bus ride to school. But I was eager to meet my babies! AHH! God knows, how ecstatic am I! All the tiredness, goneeeee. & I felt much better after clarified some stuff that I'm in dilemma, with Ms Lee. Okay whatever.
I met with my babies, and we had so much to share, with all the jokes and laughters. (Sufi! I want my first part back!! Eeee geram sei. Hahaha!). They're sucha whore by telling me that section outing at the beach is on Saturday. & I'm working! What the hell. Still, I'm going with them after work. Nvmind, I've asked them to fetch me at my workplace. Yes, its a must okay! That's a punishment for not telling me in advance. Lol!
Yaddiyaddiyayayayayyaya
I and usual awesome kids lepak at 137, & as usual Dummy and I will always be the last women standing. Haha! We headed to coffeeshop for Teh Ka Tai (whatever its calls), and then headed home with Spongebob Squarepants! Its a dare for Afiq, from coffeeshop nearby school to Msl Mrt. Wth. We're sucha attention seeker. But who cares. We had soooo much fun. & yes uh, Canadian Pizza coming right up! Yakyakyak. :D Afiq, you're the best. Lol! I love my bestkids. Dummy, Afiq, Asy, Teha, Saiful. They're the best company, and oh, they'll never forget their own friends. Peace.
- work - busy woman now - rarely spend at home nowadays - fregging hair getting longer! (yay) - deadbeat(yes certainly i am)
Tmr's another day. I'll be meeting some dear bandmates to settle some stuff after work, & its like less than two weeks to our band camp cum P.O.P. I felt rather kanchiong, 'cause there's so much to do, and so little time. If only the band could be more spontenous and flexible, and co-operate, wouldn't it make our life much easier to handle. (inside story, which you guys should knw what I'm talking about). Haiss.
Since I'm wearing santa's hat when working and its Christmas season now, therefore I dedicate this song to all my friends who celebrating Christmas. Happy holidays! (fyi, its one of my favourite song)
So, I'll see you when you see me or you'll see me when I see you. Uh? Whatever laa, as long as you, freaking bloghoppers, understand. Till then, assalamualaikum. Mwahss! (:
Woah! You're a year older now. Isn't it wonderful? & you're getting IC soon. Lol!! Aight, enjoy your partayyyy in your sleep huh. I hope to meet you soon enough okay. Love yaaa! Mwahss & hugsssss! ♥
p.s to all muslim, selamat hari raya aidiladha. p.s to myself, one more day to first day of work. *goosebumps*
Yesterday, Suhanah and I went Clementi to get my uniform for work. We were lost actually, because we mistooked the factory and the headquarter. Yaddiyaddiyaayaa. Afterwhich headed to Bugis for late lunch/dinner. We were wondering around the streets, to Clarke Quay, then to Raffles Place. As we were walking, talking and do our thing... it rains and super windy. Suhanah was holding my umbrella, even she was blown by the wind. Omg. Its was really funny. Kecoh habis! We stuck at Raffles OUB, due to heavy rain. We settled down at idk-where staircase, and had real talks. I felt better when Suhanah really hears me out. So, we're deadbeat, and trained back home as always. (:
Btw, Suhanah and I actually brought our cameras, unfortunately we're run out of batteries. Can see from the picture quality. Damnnnit.
I've been neglecting band practices this week, due to the fact that I'm desperately job hunting. With the situations I'm facing right now, I'm pushing myself. & I'm exhausted. I'm hoping, atleast, my dear trombone section, to understand my situations right now. & my darlin' uin and muntad not to get pissed with me. I'm really sorry.
to my dear trombone babies, i hope you guys are doing well, with no craps happening. i love love you guys so much, 'cause i gave birth and brought you guys up from scratch. don't disappoint me. you guys know my standard aight. i trust you guys to walk on your own. 'cause someday i'll have to wash my hands off. btw, i've made my decisions and i'll tell you guys when i come back soon. hajarah, takmo marah okay. ily my babies!
I need soulmate now. I need bestmate now. I need bestie now. Umairah, Isk, Azmi............. )': Can atleast hear me out plss ? ))':
Alhamdullilah. Atleast I could start work fast, to clear all debts that I owned, and family financial crisis that I'm facing right now. All thanks to my saviour! Erhemmmmm. Tmr will collect my uniform at Clementi. So I hope the best for everything. So pray for me people, that will help alot. (:
Anyway, met up with Amin, Karim, Soraya and her cute nephew for Starbucks free drink. Lol. FREEEEEEE! Singaporeans are damn kiasu, and I'm part of it. I don't care about the bad experience 'cause its freeeeeeee drink. DUHH who cares. For sure they gonna be bankrupt, and I'm helpng them out. Haha! Ohmygod, I sound pathetic. Oh whatever. I had so much fun with them today, and now I have two boncet friend. Caught in action!
Sayonara. Mwahsssss!
[p.s to uin and mun, i'm sorry to neglect coming for band this week. i hope you both understands aight. (: i'll catch up soon with following practices.]
So Monday, Anaablur came my house to be a model for mumsy's bridal portfolio. She looked totally like a bride, only without her groom. Lol. At the same time, I was seaching through the Strait Times for jobs and making phonecalls. Yesterday, Anaablur and I went for an interview for admin job and Starbucks. I was all set and ready with a lil' make up on, and hair done, and mumsy's Burberry handbag and shawl to go with my all-black outfit. Semangat nak interview kerja. Yaddyaddiyaya. Afterwhich, Anaablur brought me around the town side of Singapore. I looked/behaved/acted/talked like a tourist. Because believe me, I was super astonished with the buildings and atmosphere there. It's been decades, or even ages, of me stepping into the depth of town. Really mann. I kept saying I've seen the place but that was primary school years. Lol. I think if I were to hang around there alone, for sure, I'll lost.
Anyway, I had a bad experience with Starbucks. Mr. Manager was sucha whore. Wonder why I called him Mr. Manager? Because, he never introduced himself right for the start! How rude of him to sit first and meddling with my application paper and let me stand waiting for him. Mr. Manager even has broken english, fyi. & he, obviously, wasn't ready for the interview because he stops in between the question which I have to asked again. We didn't have any eye contact, due to the fact that he either looked down at the paper or everywhere around him. Mr. Manager even asked questions not related to Starbucks. E.g 'Which poly do you wana go?', 'If you failed your O's, will you continue study?' etc. For God sake, do you need to know? & honestly, I've wasted my time waiting and talking to that stupid dumb ass Mr. Manager. Why? After interviewing, he said Starbucks do not need any people now because of Christmas season and they're preparing for Cheer Party, and they're gonna be very very very busy. All applications will need to wait for two weeks. Wtf wtf! At first, he said as a whole Singapore, Starbucks needs people badly. Now he told me this shit. At that point of time, I felt like punching his motherfuckerpussy face! I don't mind getting rejected, but there's no need to lie or even gave fat hopes right. In fact, I don't wish to wait another two weeks. UGHH!! In the end, after 15 minutes of interviewing, Mr. Manager wanted to walk off, when I lift my right hand and gave a firm handshake. Damnit, don't he have the etiquette, just walked off like that? Sucha motherfuckerpussywhore. I'm so blacklisted Starbucks, or should I say Starfucks. Oops sorry Starbuckers, I mean Starfuckers. You're so out mannnn (: Anyhoos, I had so much fun with my girl, Anaablur. & we're looking forward for more meet ups. Gyeahhh. Bisa kamu bawa saya jalan-jalan satu Singapur ? Lol. Bye people.
Hi, I'm Haniz Ella Montella Suzzest. 18.
I live with my parents still. I love my kick-asses, cos' they're au'som! & I don't need your fucking first impression to judge my self. I'm live my own life, with no restrictions. To me, life is full of shitxz. And I'm living it to the fullest.
I don't have a boyfriend. But I wish to marry an adorable handsome sexymaxy hotchocolatemelt prince one day. Ooolala. ♥
And I'm also known as aku datin, duhh or just datin.
Note to Umairah and Suhanah: I've uploaded pictures of yours and ours at my Multiply. Like finally. So, you can check it out and do your thangg. Lol. Sorry for the delay.
Note to my babies: I'll update real soon about our East Coast Outing aight. Mwahss.
& to everyone: I want peace. I don't want end up getting irritated with irritating fools. Geddit? Thanks, appreciate it loads.
Actually, I've got alot to update, pictures of East Coast Outing with my babies. I'm deadbeat and obviously not in the mood after reading something that totally put myself speechless. I don't know how should I feel. Its going in the circle, again. I can say that I can't be bothered, but the feelings just can't escape. What a day to start on Christmas. Anyway, Merry Christmas to all. *singing mariah carey's christmas song*
'I am thinking of you.In my sleepless solitude tonight.If it's wrong to love you.Then my heart just won't let me be right.'Cause I've drowned in you.And I won't pull through.Without you by my side.I'd give my all.To have just one more night with you.I'd risk my life.To feel your body next to mine.'Cause I can't go on.Living in the memory of our song.I'd give my all.For your love tonight.Baby, can you feel me.Imagining I'm looking in your eyes.I can see you clearly.Vividly emblazoned in my mind.And yet you're so far.Like a distant star.I'm wishing on tonight.' boy, i love you, and you knew it.
My stomach is really testing my patience. God knows how hurt, really hurt it is. Tomorrow I'm working, and I don't know if I'm able to pull through. Earlier on, I've managed to, because I was controlling/tahan-ing the pain as not to make other people's life difficult you see. So yaa thats it. Dear God, plssssssss.
I'm exhausted. I didn't had any proper meals. I always skipped dinner, and rarely ate lunch. Yet I have weight problem. Laptop is my food now. I am packed with too many schedules, that I don't have much time for myself. I'm fcuking stressed. I didn't had proper sleep too, 'cause I simply can't sleep. Migraine come and go, and eyebags sure making my face like a puffer fish. I get agitated with surroundings. I missed my period, again. I'll tend to talk to myself 'cause nobody is really here hear me out. I wanna cry. It makes me feel better. That's all I could do. I feel that people around me is changing. Or is it me? Idk. I felt I've becoming more sensitive. Damn. I've been living independently now. Maybe I should. I'm really exhausted. I really really am. My body's aching. My heart beats not constant, and it really hurts. My mind is jumble up. I have so many things to pen down, or even to let it out loud. P.O.P's drawing near, and I could feel the chills. I knew He will be there for me, whenever I'm down with shitxzx, and I'll think of Him and pray everything will be fine. & I'm sure I could make it through all this shitzx, 'cause for now I could still stand strong, waiting to breakdown. Thats it.
I miss that boy. I'm happy for his N level results. He's near me, but somehow I felt that we're so much distant apart. By listening to Mariah Carey's, I'm tearing. Bye.
Tmr is Saturday, and I'm working. Damnit. Anyway I'm new, and got many things to learn and remember. Afterwhich, section outing! I'm sooooo looking forward mannnnn. Happy sekali! Whats more, my babies gonna pick me up at my workplace. Woohoo. *dancing dangdut*
Earlier in the evening, I met Amalina and Nabilah near my neighbourhood, plus mumsy wants bubble tea and food for tmr's breakfast. I'm sooo ecstatic to meet to them y'know! It was a short meet up, yet I still miss them truckloads. Ibuku & Nenekku, tell me in advance for any meet ups k. don't lupa me, like that bitch who ditched me whenever she meets you all. wth! sakit hati the max laaa. but i know you both won't do that to me right. lol! thanks for calling me up to meet. you know i am so happy you called. *big grin* love you bbygirls! mwahssss! Right now, I'm enduring mumsy, who said wanna sleep but wondering around the house disturbing people with her loud boombox. Lol, funny yet irrtitaing to the max. & I'm chatting with Azmi bestie! and with Stephy bby too! *kening naik naik* Idk why I wrote these, but I'm so bored. Imeem sucha whore.
My mind was everywhere, that I can't focus on work. Its like most of the things I did, went wrong. Wth. I bet my colleagues today got irritated with me. Idk, I'm sorry.
I rushed to school, after work, for band practice. Supposedly, I was alrd yawning and half sleep throughout the bus ride to school. But I was eager to meet my babies! AHH! God knows, how ecstatic am I! All the tiredness, goneeeee. & I felt much better after clarified some stuff that I'm in dilemma, with Ms Lee. Okay whatever.
I met with my babies, and we had so much to share, with all the jokes and laughters. (Sufi! I want my first part back!! Eeee geram sei. Hahaha!). They're sucha whore by telling me that section outing at the beach is on Saturday. & I'm working! What the hell. Still, I'm going with them after work. Nvmind, I've asked them to fetch me at my workplace. Yes, its a must okay! That's a punishment for not telling me in advance. Lol!
Yaddiyaddiyayayayayyaya
I and usual awesome kids lepak at 137, & as usual Dummy and I will always be the last women standing. Haha! We headed to coffeeshop for Teh Ka Tai (whatever its calls), and then headed home with Spongebob Squarepants! Its a dare for Afiq, from coffeeshop nearby school to Msl Mrt. Wth. We're sucha attention seeker. But who cares. We had soooo much fun. & yes uh, Canadian Pizza coming right up! Yakyakyak. :D Afiq, you're the best. Lol! I love my bestkids. Dummy, Afiq, Asy, Teha, Saiful. They're the best company, and oh, they'll never forget their own friends. Peace.
- work - busy woman now - rarely spend at home nowadays - fregging hair getting longer! (yay) - deadbeat(yes certainly i am)
Tmr's another day. I'll be meeting some dear bandmates to settle some stuff after work, & its like less than two weeks to our band camp cum P.O.P. I felt rather kanchiong, 'cause there's so much to do, and so little time. If only the band could be more spontenous and flexible, and co-operate, wouldn't it make our life much easier to handle. (inside story, which you guys should knw what I'm talking about). Haiss.
Since I'm wearing santa's hat when working and its Christmas season now, therefore I dedicate this song to all my friends who celebrating Christmas. Happy holidays! (fyi, its one of my favourite song)
So, I'll see you when you see me or you'll see me when I see you. Uh? Whatever laa, as long as you, freaking bloghoppers, understand. Till then, assalamualaikum. Mwahss! (:
Woah! You're a year older now. Isn't it wonderful? & you're getting IC soon. Lol!! Aight, enjoy your partayyyy in your sleep huh. I hope to meet you soon enough okay. Love yaaa! Mwahss & hugsssss! ♥
p.s to all muslim, selamat hari raya aidiladha. p.s to myself, one more day to first day of work. *goosebumps*
Yesterday, Suhanah and I went Clementi to get my uniform for work. We were lost actually, because we mistooked the factory and the headquarter. Yaddiyaddiyaayaa. Afterwhich headed to Bugis for late lunch/dinner. We were wondering around the streets, to Clarke Quay, then to Raffles Place. As we were walking, talking and do our thing... it rains and super windy. Suhanah was holding my umbrella, even she was blown by the wind. Omg. Its was really funny. Kecoh habis! We stuck at Raffles OUB, due to heavy rain. We settled down at idk-where staircase, and had real talks. I felt better when Suhanah really hears me out. So, we're deadbeat, and trained back home as always. (:
Btw, Suhanah and I actually brought our cameras, unfortunately we're run out of batteries. Can see from the picture quality. Damnnnit.
I've been neglecting band practices this week, due to the fact that I'm desperately job hunting. With the situations I'm facing right now, I'm pushing myself. & I'm exhausted. I'm hoping, atleast, my dear trombone section, to understand my situations right now. & my darlin' uin and muntad not to get pissed with me. I'm really sorry.
to my dear trombone babies, i hope you guys are doing well, with no craps happening. i love love you guys so much, 'cause i gave birth and brought you guys up from scratch. don't disappoint me. you guys know my standard aight. i trust you guys to walk on your own. 'cause someday i'll have to wash my hands off. btw, i've made my decisions and i'll tell you guys when i come back soon. hajarah, takmo marah okay. ily my babies!
I need soulmate now. I need bestmate now. I need bestie now. Umairah, Isk, Azmi............. )': Can atleast hear me out plss ? ))':
Alhamdullilah. Atleast I could start work fast, to clear all debts that I owned, and family financial crisis that I'm facing right now. All thanks to my saviour! Erhemmmmm. Tmr will collect my uniform at Clementi. So I hope the best for everything. So pray for me people, that will help alot. (:
Anyway, met up with Amin, Karim, Soraya and her cute nephew for Starbucks free drink. Lol. FREEEEEEE! Singaporeans are damn kiasu, and I'm part of it. I don't care about the bad experience 'cause its freeeeeeee drink. DUHH who cares. For sure they gonna be bankrupt, and I'm helpng them out. Haha! Ohmygod, I sound pathetic. Oh whatever. I had so much fun with them today, and now I have two boncet friend. Caught in action!
Sayonara. Mwahsssss!
[p.s to uin and mun, i'm sorry to neglect coming for band this week. i hope you both understands aight. (: i'll catch up soon with following practices.]
So Monday, Anaablur came my house to be a model for mumsy's bridal portfolio. She looked totally like a bride, only without her groom. Lol. At the same time, I was seaching through the Strait Times for jobs and making phonecalls. Yesterday, Anaablur and I went for an interview for admin job and Starbucks. I was all set and ready with a lil' make up on, and hair done, and mumsy's Burberry handbag and shawl to go with my all-black outfit. Semangat nak interview kerja. Yaddyaddiyaya. Afterwhich, Anaablur brought me around the town side of Singapore. I looked/behaved/acted/talked like a tourist. Because believe me, I was super astonished with the buildings and atmosphere there. It's been decades, or even ages, of me stepping into the depth of town. Really mann. I kept saying I've seen the place but that was primary school years. Lol. I think if I were to hang around there alone, for sure, I'll lost.
Anyway, I had a bad experience with Starbucks. Mr. Manager was sucha whore. Wonder why I called him Mr. Manager? Because, he never introduced himself right for the start! How rude of him to sit first and meddling with my application paper and let me stand waiting for him. Mr. Manager even has broken english, fyi. & he, obviously, wasn't ready for the interview because he stops in between the question which I have to asked again. We didn't have any eye contact, due to the fact that he either looked down at the paper or everywhere around him. Mr. Manager even asked questions not related to Starbucks. E.g 'Which poly do you wana go?', 'If you failed your O's, will you continue study?' etc. For God sake, do you need to know? & honestly, I've wasted my time waiting and talking to that stupid dumb ass Mr. Manager. Why? After interviewing, he said Starbucks do not need any people now because of Christmas season and they're preparing for Cheer Party, and they're gonna be very very very busy. All applications will need to wait for two weeks. Wtf wtf! At first, he said as a whole Singapore, Starbucks needs people badly. Now he told me this shit. At that point of time, I felt like punching his motherfuckerpussy face! I don't mind getting rejected, but there's no need to lie or even gave fat hopes right. In fact, I don't wish to wait another two weeks. UGHH!! In the end, after 15 minutes of interviewing, Mr. Manager wanted to walk off, when I lift my right hand and gave a firm handshake. Damnit, don't he have the etiquette, just walked off like that? Sucha motherfuckerpussywhore. I'm so blacklisted Starbucks, or should I say Starfucks. Oops sorry Starbuckers, I mean Starfuckers. You're so out mannnn (: Anyhoos, I had so much fun with my girl, Anaablur. & we're looking forward for more meet ups. Gyeahhh. Bisa kamu bawa saya jalan-jalan satu Singapur ? Lol. Bye people.
