Yes mofos. I'm enjoying every bit of my life in Paris here. The weather's awesome and indescribable tho'. The people are very nice, and helpful. I'm starting to talk like them! Lol. (:
Anyway, I had a long conversation over the phone with a good friend of mine in Singapore, last night. We were checking out the Band Fusion. Results for the SYF was (insert any word). Idk its very scary upon seeing the results. &today I spent most of my time checking out today's results. The tension keep piling up. I see few bronzes, handful of silvers, few golds. I kept reading the comments there, and I think this year's SYF is technically judged. AHH! I wonder if my band felt the tension too. Hmmm?
Behind those smiles and laughter, there's hardship that we've been through together as one band. There's undivided love, we're a family, not according to age, but as a whole band. And only God knows, buckets of sweats and tears we shed. With everyday practices, marching under the scorching sun with no one pretending to be sick, numerous of shouting and punishments, brought not just me, but people up there to be someone better. & I'm talking about only those people up there in the picture. It ain't the same like it used to be now. ):
Jx uh, finally a picture with you! Lol. Mmm, I'm taking a week off from work, then I'll see the possibilities k. For the past four months, y'all so nice, and awesome, and adorables. I myself obviously don't want leave. But, see how eh. Anyway, you replaced me today when its supposed to be my 'last day'. But good thing and coincidently you called before I wear the uniform, 'cause I was having flu and fever since the friday night shift. -.-Hmpf. So yaa thankss alot! & I love you too my dear. Hehe! Don't lose the sexband I gave hor. Or don't talk to me ever again. 'Cause you can talk to my ass. OOPS. Lol!! :D Hope to see you soon, and take care aite. Mwahs!
So, as you mofos know, I'll be away for a week to Paris. Its all planned out perfectly. When, or with who I'm going, is none your business. Believe it or not, it totally up to you. I don't need satisfaction from you mofos anyway. Any goodies? Leave me a call/sms/tags. Whatever that can get through me okay. There's still time. My flight will be on Monday night, despite my sickness I can't wait to get onto the plane again. Hehe! Miss me like you never miss me before.
I think I'm gonna catch flu. Fcuk this sucks mannnnnnnnnnnnnnn. aaaaacccchhooooooooooooo!! -___-"
All the best MslCb for tonight's concert. I hope it worth my ten bucks, and adult fare trip to and fro, and mostly, worth my time. ^.^v See y'all later alligators. Mwahs.
Its 2.20am, and I'm fcuking hungry here. Fooooooooooood! Okay bye mofos!
Ohwell mofos, here's a proper post, highly requested by a good friend of mine who doesn't like to watch videos. Wth right. Nevamind since he's my good friend, so I took the initiative here to really post pictures of what I did yesterday since no one ask me out for a date. Hehe ^.^
Soooo, I tried eye makeup out of boredom but its turns out ugly, i think. Whatever atleast I tried my best. Hehe!
Mumsy woke up, and laughed at me. -___-" Sooooo, she did these! *point below* fyi, she's a freelance mak andam.so yaa don't ask much.
Mmm, I used scarfs to cover my not-so-cool bossini tshirt, the eyeslashes is as long as curtains and its heavy to the max! I hadn't trim my eyebrow yet. & Mumsy had already published it at her own website. Pfft! -__- I don't find it pretty, but I like my hair done. ^.^v Anyway, whoever wants free bridal makeover, pls eh call/sms me. Obviously mumsy's work, not me. Er costumes and make ups provided. Girl or boy also can laaa.Azmi! Bila nak nie? Fav mak kau tgh tunggu. Lol.
Whats on my mind right now: I really need to lose weight. School starting in two weeks time, but I have yet gotten my school skirt (Fuck). Someone's going NS soon. I somehow miss my 5S2's. I miss my babies so much. I've totally forgotten about my thirdmonthsary on the ninth. I love my job, so pls don't ask me to quit. Loang Nois outing is a must. But I'm totally broke. Honestly, for the first time, I can't wait for my next pay. I'm hanging out with people who is not at my age, yet I'm trying to be happy eventho' I felt outcast by them sometimes. I miss my bestmate so much. He's having a goodlife now. Happy for him. I woke up every morning, prays that things would be better and good things will happen. Lastly, I'm listening to Goodbye by Miley Cyrus, repeatedly. End.
And oh, if you hate me so much and decided to hatetag. Silaaaaaaaa! Be my guest, and keep those tagboard spicing okay. Till then, bye mofos!
I've been missing for quite sometime, I know. Due to the fact that, my life is not stable as yet. It ain't getting better, but I just hope things would be better. My eyes are already soggy, due to too much crying. My mind is driving slow, where I'll be deep in my thoughts and not realising people around are actually talking to me. I'm deadbeat, yet I pushing myself. I cried like a mad woman yesterday, in front of Bestie. Its because I can't hold it anymore, living my life with my parents. For once, I really felt that I wanna give my life, by suicide. &I still remember clearly when Bestie said. 'That's so stupid'. Its just three words, but it meant alot, as I think back its obviously not worth it. Anaaablur kept saying over and times, dying will not solve anything. I bet she got really tired telling that to my brain. I almost killed myself, due unconsciousness out the sudden. &at one point of time I will cry, the next thing I'll get angry, and felt like throwing whatever that's on my hand and spout nonsense. I can't control my emotions, but I'm trying my best to control tho'. To add on, parents and myself have been living in different world. I will coop myself in my room most of the times now. I don't think you readers need to know in depth, just my closed ones knew. Its too much for me to think, and to bare all these shitxz. Cause its been a hectic and hurtful week for myself. I need to breathe once again.
I love my job so much, that eventhough its almost three months I've been working there. I pretty much met all those adorable people, and nice managers. I had so much fun everytime I had my shifts on, working with every adorable people eventho' I work only once twice a week due to cutting down of labour cost. But, its hard for me to let go when mum decided, asking me to quit my job, for some reason which apparently is my fault. I stayed calmed until she finished her sentence, I went to my room and couldn't stop tearing uptil now. I just hope she would take back her words. If not, I left a week more.
Mmm whatever happens in life, there's always reasons behind it and somehow reflect back what we've done that make people give such remark to us. Quoted by Bestie and Soulmate. I'll keep that in mind forever. Thanks alot.
I miss Iskandar Ram'dhan. I bet he's enjoyin every minute of his life, from his almost everyday posts I've read. eh pakcik, aku rindu kau laaa deng. kau da lupa aku kannnnnnn. -___-, lol.
Hi, I'm Haniz Ella Montella Suzzest. 18.
I live with my parents still. I love my kick-asses, cos' they're au'som! & I don't need your fucking first impression to judge my self. I'm live my own life, with no restrictions. To me, life is full of shitxz. And I'm living it to the fullest.
I don't have a boyfriend. But I wish to marry an adorable handsome sexymaxy hotchocolatemelt prince one day. Ooolala. ♥
And I'm also known as aku datin, duhh or just datin.
Yes mofos. I'm enjoying every bit of my life in Paris here. The weather's awesome and indescribable tho'. The people are very nice, and helpful. I'm starting to talk like them! Lol. (:
Anyway, I had a long conversation over the phone with a good friend of mine in Singapore, last night. We were checking out the Band Fusion. Results for the SYF was (insert any word). Idk its very scary upon seeing the results. &today I spent most of my time checking out today's results. The tension keep piling up. I see few bronzes, handful of silvers, few golds. I kept reading the comments there, and I think this year's SYF is technically judged. AHH! I wonder if my band felt the tension too. Hmmm?
Behind those smiles and laughter, there's hardship that we've been through together as one band. There's undivided love, we're a family, not according to age, but as a whole band. And only God knows, buckets of sweats and tears we shed. With everyday practices, marching under the scorching sun with no one pretending to be sick, numerous of shouting and punishments, brought not just me, but people up there to be someone better. & I'm talking about only those people up there in the picture. It ain't the same like it used to be now. ):
Jx uh, finally a picture with you! Lol. Mmm, I'm taking a week off from work, then I'll see the possibilities k. For the past four months, y'all so nice, and awesome, and adorables. I myself obviously don't want leave. But, see how eh. Anyway, you replaced me today when its supposed to be my 'last day'. But good thing and coincidently you called before I wear the uniform, 'cause I was having flu and fever since the friday night shift. -.-Hmpf. So yaa thankss alot! & I love you too my dear. Hehe! Don't lose the sexband I gave hor. Or don't talk to me ever again. 'Cause you can talk to my ass. OOPS. Lol!! :D Hope to see you soon, and take care aite. Mwahs!
So, as you mofos know, I'll be away for a week to Paris. Its all planned out perfectly. When, or with who I'm going, is none your business. Believe it or not, it totally up to you. I don't need satisfaction from you mofos anyway. Any goodies? Leave me a call/sms/tags. Whatever that can get through me okay. There's still time. My flight will be on Monday night, despite my sickness I can't wait to get onto the plane again. Hehe! Miss me like you never miss me before.
I think I'm gonna catch flu. Fcuk this sucks mannnnnnnnnnnnnnn. aaaaacccchhooooooooooooo!! -___-"
All the best MslCb for tonight's concert. I hope it worth my ten bucks, and adult fare trip to and fro, and mostly, worth my time. ^.^v See y'all later alligators. Mwahs.
Its 2.20am, and I'm fcuking hungry here. Fooooooooooood! Okay bye mofos!
Ohwell mofos, here's a proper post, highly requested by a good friend of mine who doesn't like to watch videos. Wth right. Nevamind since he's my good friend, so I took the initiative here to really post pictures of what I did yesterday since no one ask me out for a date. Hehe ^.^
Soooo, I tried eye makeup out of boredom but its turns out ugly, i think. Whatever atleast I tried my best. Hehe!
Mumsy woke up, and laughed at me. -___-" Sooooo, she did these! *point below* fyi, she's a freelance mak andam.so yaa don't ask much.
Mmm, I used scarfs to cover my not-so-cool bossini tshirt, the eyeslashes is as long as curtains and its heavy to the max! I hadn't trim my eyebrow yet. & Mumsy had already published it at her own website. Pfft! -__- I don't find it pretty, but I like my hair done. ^.^v Anyway, whoever wants free bridal makeover, pls eh call/sms me. Obviously mumsy's work, not me. Er costumes and make ups provided. Girl or boy also can laaa.Azmi! Bila nak nie? Fav mak kau tgh tunggu. Lol.
Whats on my mind right now: I really need to lose weight. School starting in two weeks time, but I have yet gotten my school skirt (Fuck). Someone's going NS soon. I somehow miss my 5S2's. I miss my babies so much. I've totally forgotten about my thirdmonthsary on the ninth. I love my job, so pls don't ask me to quit. Loang Nois outing is a must. But I'm totally broke. Honestly, for the first time, I can't wait for my next pay. I'm hanging out with people who is not at my age, yet I'm trying to be happy eventho' I felt outcast by them sometimes. I miss my bestmate so much. He's having a goodlife now. Happy for him. I woke up every morning, prays that things would be better and good things will happen. Lastly, I'm listening to Goodbye by Miley Cyrus, repeatedly. End.
And oh, if you hate me so much and decided to hatetag. Silaaaaaaaa! Be my guest, and keep those tagboard spicing okay. Till then, bye mofos!
I've been missing for quite sometime, I know. Due to the fact that, my life is not stable as yet. It ain't getting better, but I just hope things would be better. My eyes are already soggy, due to too much crying. My mind is driving slow, where I'll be deep in my thoughts and not realising people around are actually talking to me. I'm deadbeat, yet I pushing myself. I cried like a mad woman yesterday, in front of Bestie. Its because I can't hold it anymore, living my life with my parents. For once, I really felt that I wanna give my life, by suicide. &I still remember clearly when Bestie said. 'That's so stupid'. Its just three words, but it meant alot, as I think back its obviously not worth it. Anaaablur kept saying over and times, dying will not solve anything. I bet she got really tired telling that to my brain. I almost killed myself, due unconsciousness out the sudden. &at one point of time I will cry, the next thing I'll get angry, and felt like throwing whatever that's on my hand and spout nonsense. I can't control my emotions, but I'm trying my best to control tho'. To add on, parents and myself have been living in different world. I will coop myself in my room most of the times now. I don't think you readers need to know in depth, just my closed ones knew. Its too much for me to think, and to bare all these shitxz. Cause its been a hectic and hurtful week for myself. I need to breathe once again.
I love my job so much, that eventhough its almost three months I've been working there. I pretty much met all those adorable people, and nice managers. I had so much fun everytime I had my shifts on, working with every adorable people eventho' I work only once twice a week due to cutting down of labour cost. But, its hard for me to let go when mum decided, asking me to quit my job, for some reason which apparently is my fault. I stayed calmed until she finished her sentence, I went to my room and couldn't stop tearing uptil now. I just hope she would take back her words. If not, I left a week more.
Mmm whatever happens in life, there's always reasons behind it and somehow reflect back what we've done that make people give such remark to us. Quoted by Bestie and Soulmate. I'll keep that in mind forever. Thanks alot.
I miss Iskandar Ram'dhan. I bet he's enjoyin every minute of his life, from his almost everyday posts I've read. eh pakcik, aku rindu kau laaa deng. kau da lupa aku kannnnnnn. -___-, lol.
