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Hi.
Sunday, February 28, 2010


It has always been me to be the cause of our miscommunications,
Why why? We need to talk
I'll be waiting for your call tmr then. ):

P.s How much I've always treated you in bad ways, you're still the best I ever had.
Bye.


Saturday, February 27, 2010

today was au' som and worthwhile.
and luv is the topping of everything.

i should stop blabbering about him now.
cos he have satellites everywhere.
and he said i have 'imisslalaluv syndrome'
& another syndrome that should be disclosed.
wtf, hahahaha. you should consider yourself a stalker then.
:D

'i wanna know what love is
i want you to show me'
- mariah carey

okay bye. and smile!


Wednesday, February 24, 2010

.

you won't change. it'll be miracle if you do.
i love you. and you know that.
i'm waiting for the time where i totally will give up on you.
but i know myself better, i just can't. but i will.
time will tell, bby.
bye.

i just need bff, xida bestf, nina for now.
that's all matter to me now.


Sunday, February 21, 2010

ITE CONCERT BAND ANNUAL
GAMES DAY

The Poseidon

Section Leaders 2010


Exco & Committee 2010 (:

Finally, the ITE Concert Band ♥

These are the main ones. More on Facebook.

Saturday was ze' bombxzx.
We had to run from 1st level to the 5th level, then back to 1st, then back again to 4th, then run half of soccer field in that fucking big school. With flour sticking all over our body. No lifts, just staircase. Yes, NO lifts. & that staircase was high enough that half the time i crawled up. -__- How bad was that. Hmpff! Good thang I didn't cursed. I think I shed some weight too. Hahaha!
Nevertheless, with the awesome mate I have, we managed to pull through. The three juniors in my team are the 'dgr kata punya org'. Good eh. Hahaha. Thumbs up Poseidon! (Y)

ITE Concert Band rock my fugly sockssss! \m/
Lets aim high, and chiong for our upcoming two competitions okay. (:


Friday, February 19, 2010

saat ini, sesungguhnya saya sedih nak mampos.
i read, and i heard. ):
takpe la.
can i not go for tonight's practice?
cos' i don't want see the unexpected.


Tuesday, February 16, 2010

I wonder if i still exist in your life, bestf? Now that you seems to be very very busy with work, that we rarely contact now. I sensed of lost in my life now. I always tell things to you. There's hell loads to tell. I've been keeping it more and more. And you'll always be there whenever I feel sad, and understand bits and pieces of me, and crack stupid remarks that'll make me laugh. But now no more? Yes, I miss you very very much bestf. Whats more we hadn't been hanging out nowadays. Well it seems that you got nothing lose, cos' you've got them to fill up your time now. Mayb I should be understanding enough, and patience? Hohummm. This is one of the reason why I'm feeling down and low lately. I hope you know that )': Bye.

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Monday, February 15, 2010

Where are you, friendsssss? ):
busy busy busy huh. haiyaaaa.





Guess who did i met recently?
Police boy in blue there, and Shafiq. (:


Sunday, February 14, 2010


I'm confused.
Everything happened so fast.
& Everything i did seems wrong.
Fck it.



Friday, February 12, 2010


sometimes i wished i don't exist in this world. even if now i live for near nineteen years, i wished i'm dead. how long should i stay in this cruel world? sometimes i said enough is enough. but its never enough. it'll come back over and over again. i feel lonely as a daughter. sometimes i feel neglected by friends. then who should i turn to then. i screamed my lungs out to my pillow, my tears wet my smelly pillows. no one will ever hear. i'll cry myself to sleep, and i wake up in the middle of night, having nightmares. i wanted to screamed for mum, but i knew she won't bother. and when i woke in the morning, my eyes shagged. i could feel my heart beats heavier, and that i couldn't breathe properly. no one ever knew, this shit of life i'm through. cos once i stepped out from my room, put up a mask and fit in to the society. and i've been forgetting to eat lately. even if i'm hungry, it doesn't grumble. restless nights, lack of sleep is a routine now. and all i did was staring up the ceiling in the dark, see nothing but just dark ceilings. you think you know me so well, but you don't. sadly, you don't. no one will. tonight's gonna be another restless night, tossing and turning. bye world.


Thursday, February 11, 2010



At the most down side of life. It sucks harcore.
I promise, that I'll post something way better than this.
Meantime, pictures uploaded at Facebook.
(Wonderous @ Botanic, Nad's Flight etc)

Anyway, happy nineteenth to my one and only Siti Fatima Azmi
Sorry, aku tak maksud nak lupa birthday kau.
& kau tadi balik tak blg aku sei. i sad ):
Bsok bsok bsok! Kita gi sheeeeesha okay. Walaupun kau tak sheesha kan.
Takpe, we'll have fun. Girls night out, again. Weee. (:

To add on, I miss lalaloveeee ver ver much. ♥


Sunday, February 07, 2010


Saturday was worth spent with Wonderous at Botanical Garden. Au'som night with them. ♥

Its been a hectic week. I hope things will be better next week (?) Sheeeesha soon for me! Weeee. ^^


Wednesday, February 03, 2010

Fucking bad day today.
& you're one fucking irrtating whore.
bye.





anw, tmr is the day. wish me luck. i need it. no more shits please.