Actually, I've got alot to update, pictures of East Coast Outing with my babies. I'm deadbeat and obviously not in the mood after reading something that totally put myself speechless. I don't know how should I feel. Its going in the circle, again. I can say that I can't be bothered, but the feelings just can't escape. What a day to start on Christmas. Anyway, Merry Christmas to all. *singing mariah carey's christmas song*

'I am thinking of you.In my sleepless solitude tonight.If it's wrong to love you.Then my heart just won't let me be right.'Cause I've drowned in you.And I won't pull through.Without you by my side.I'd give my all.To have just one more night with you.I'd risk my life.To feel your body next to mine.'Cause I can't go on.Living in the memory of our song.I'd give my all.For your love tonight.Baby, can you feel me.Imagining I'm looking in your eyes.I can see you clearly.Vividly emblazoned in my mind.And yet you're so far.Like a distant star.I'm wishing on tonight.' boy, i love you, and you knew it.

My stomach is really testing my patience. God knows how hurt, really hurt it is. Tomorrow I'm working, and I don't know if I'm able to pull through. Earlier on, I've managed to, because I was controlling/tahan-ing the pain as not to make other people's life difficult you see. So yaa thats it. Dear God, plssssssss.