Hello :T

I don't know whats next for me now.
Mum found out that I've been crying overnight.
My eyes shows. But I wont tell her of course. Pfft.

I cant let him go. For now.
Even he's really into that girl already.
Waa. With all her sweetness that he just melt.
When i see, for once I wanna screammm. Ugh

Today: Went Tampines Mall with family. And for once I feel so happy. Idk why. I just forgotten all about this fucking stuff. Seriously.
&& i think i just saw that son of the dhl. omggg just walked passed him but i didn't have the second glance. he's short eyk? omggg did i really saw himm? ok whatever.

Well Readers, you might find its just typical love story of mine.
But seriously. I've been through nearly a year now. And im still love him.
Which i have never been really in love.
I don't know how to say this in words.

Every night, I tried to think back. What have I done wrong.
The memories that I had with him. Go through ups and down together.
When it comes to conclusion, he just did all this just to make me happy.
Showing all his 'love' and 'concern', but he's lying. Right? Just to make me happy.
But in the end, I suffer. Alott. I end up being such a stupid fool. Ugh :(
Its isn't the same now. The situation is totally different. & idk what to do.
Move on with life? Thats what people says. Its hard lh.

&& every night, i kept praying to God.
to give me peace in mind.
& i do pray for him.
his safety and everything.
to open up his mind and heart. let him think for the better.
aminn.

With all my sacrifices for him,
I do hope he never regret having me to be his ex, wife, bestmates.
Even though he broke the promises that he made alot. pfft.

Promise are meant to be break.
Quoted by someone.

I miss him. <3