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Monday, July 07, 2008


Do you believe in karma?

Recently, I kept having dreams/nightmares of my ex-boyf. I don't know why like out of the sudden yaw. This ex-boyf of mine whom I just dumped for another guy. Like 3 years ago okay. When I was still a Sec 2 kid? Hell yeah, that point of time I was rebellious and a full time bitch, honestly.

Ex-boyf was a sweet/adorable guy.
Out of my stupidity, I dumped him. I've made a big mistake for doing that. & it leads me to karma. I bet he cursed me for dumping him. As what he told a friend of mine that he was trying to sustain our relationship. Like wth -_______________________- I wonder how he reacts when he knew that time. Hmpfff. & of course he hates me alot right. Since that day, we didn't even talk.

I felt so guilty until now. I just can't forgive myself for doing that. Heartless bitch, i am. Really. Even if he's online, we won't be chatting like used to be. Totally mute. I still have his number on my mobile list. One time, I texted him to seek for forgiveness. & that point of time, my mobile was charging besides radio which tuning in Ria. When he replies with simple word like "Okay I forgive u", the radio went; 'Baru lah aku mengaku. Cinta kita telah musnah' And duhhhh, I was crying like mad. The song was played quite loud on the radio mind you. I was helpless. mannnnnnn, if only I could turn back the time, I would undo my mistakes yo'. Well, in life sometimes its too late for good things right. Ohwell, since that day too, I faced karma. I got dumped a couple of times. My love life wasn't doing great yaw. I didn't had long relationships neither I could sustain a friendship with my love one. I had enough of it mann. Please go away karma. I've learnt my lesson and of course I should think before I break someone's heart again.
Things won't be the same.

I'm sorry 'L'. I knew you would be hating me 'till now. But if you could just give me a chance to undo my mistakes, I'll atleast be a good friend yaw. ):

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